I Miss my dog

If ever you're wondering what came up to me to come up a blog about my dog well, here it is, I miss him so much I cry (literally).

Getting a dog was never in my plan or part of my #LifeGoals for so many reasons. To name a few, I got bitten by a dog when I was still young and that is more than enough to say why I should not own one but aside from that, I don't wanna get attached to any of its kind because they are real heartbreakers. You feed them, take care of them, even treat them like your child then one day, they leave you all of sudden. So yes, why would I l? Right?

However, your heart wants what it wants no matter how much you try not to. And so one day, I bought a dog and named it Finn. It was one of those decisions i made in my life that i didn't bother to think about more deeply. It just happened so fast without even knowing that there's more than just getting bitten or attached, that owning a dog comes with a great GREAT RESPONSIBILITY.

 It was a bad decision. In my whole life, never did I ever imagine myself waking up 2 in the morning just to wipe a pee or poop of a dog, or stay up late at night just to check if the dog is already asleep. I never thought I would panic like that when I learned that a dog of mine ate his own or other animal's poop, ingested a battery, and consumed objects that they shouldn't. I never thought i could run or move that fast when my dog decided to sneak around and out of the house when he gets the chance to. And oh this one, I never thought I'm capable of handling a situation where I'm tasked to clean up first thing in the morning the scattered notebooks and papers my dog came up with while everybody are sleeping. see? It wasn't easy. It was a struggle. A struggle I didn't mind while taking care of my baby.

After everything Finn had put me through, I realized one thing - He changed me. Finn changed me in a way I thought I will never be. Look, who would have thought I survived those things? My dog taught me to be patient, kind, and selfless. He turned me into a loving human being. Honestly, i've never been this passionate and caring towards other animals. Finn made it happen.

I miss him sooooo much it hurts. I never knew it's possible to miss a dog as much as I do to him now. I just wanna hug my baby and let him kiss me all over my face. There's no place I'd rather be but just beside him now. It will take us years before we see each other again but the moment I'll see him again, i won't let my baby go. God! Please take care of my Finn. I love him so much. 😭😭😭